Things I want to say.....but probably won't

What kind of freaking miracle cure are you expecting in the next four months? I am never.....DO YOU HEAR ME .....NEVER........going to be cured, or say I will not use food as a comfort. I just don't know how much more of this dog and pony show I can take. I am not stupid.....I know I can go to another hospital and lie my way into this surgery. And just what exactly are you looking for. What are the freaking magic words that will make you happy and satisfied. You are a god damn shrink....why can't you understand that there are no freaking guarantees in life. Get over yourself. Every time I talk with people who have had this surgery, I hear horror stories. People who got right in, no problem, you are sane, lets do this. And it backfires, they are not sane, they just don't admit it up front. I am doing this the right way. Once again I feel as though I am being punished for good behavior. I am admitting my shortcomings, putting it out there for everyone to see, and I am not perfect, and never will be. What kind of test are you going to give me to make sure I can handle rude people. Do you have some sort of social obstacle course set up. And Nathan --- I'm freaking tired of your shit too. You set me up for failure....and I'll be damned if I let you succeed. Your going to regret this. Trust me....I'll be getting at least 2 5's on this years evaluation. Sorry I'm not one of your skinny bitches....but you will be sorry if you keep pushing me to the back burner. I will become your worst nightmare. This is why you didn't get Al's job. You are a horrible boss. You may be smart and know your purchasing stuff....but you have no people skills. You are an ass and you act like one on a regular basis. You are inappropriate on a regular basis, and your have just been lucky so far, just wait someday your actions are going to come back to bite you in the ass.